I'm hopeful nonetheless. What to actually do with these inner voices or the deeper sources they come from? The deeper sources, I wonder whether they're from the inside or something from the outside is making it happen. Making me feel so. Something. There has to be something.
Or someone. Can one really have such a command over another? Such a command that changes the whole path of one's self and life. At least beginning to? Queries arise in mind, despite the hope. Feels unstable. As unstable as I was, the whole day, I remember. Something natural, proving that I am, at the end of the day, a human. A human who needs assurance regarding some valuable things that are yet out of my reach.
A doubt, whether it is just a matter of impractical thoughts and in real, there's absolutely nothing like that at all.