Some time off

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That moment arrives when a normal day starts feeling like a storm all around you. The air feels cruel. The winds, even more. You hurt. It doesn't go away. It troubles you outwardly. Your head feels empty, but gets heavier every minute. The weight of never-ending thoughts, insecurities and the fear. You try badly for this storm to stop. You try not to let anything enter your mind for you know you'll have to pay for it. But what you avoid, identifies you. What you're supposed to be like, kills you somehow. Every thought leads you back to that same place. You long. You hurt. Like a beggar. Full of regrets. Full of what ifs and buts. You're nothing inside but everything inside you is just too much that you feel the space isn't enough. You feel weightless. But it feels like the burden is breaking you and pushing you down the floor, deep down the tiles of your room and even the sand thereafter. You don't stop trying but the storm always wins. Like it has won, right now.

What do I feel right now? All at once. And nothing at all.

Comments

  1. Silence Unplugged.February 09, 2012 3:01 am

    wow! So well expressed..!
    And miss, ur blog is no less !
    Love it to bits :D

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  2. sumukh bansalFebruary 09, 2012 8:58 am

    and then you start enjoying this fight between you and storm.its like that this storm is your real buddy. when no one was there only thing which was near you is that storm, so close that every nerve, every thought of yours was devoted to that storm....

    you expressed it well...

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  3. SoumiFebruary 09, 2012 10:59 am

    All at once.And nothing at all.Period.

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  4. Stephanie ScarpaFebruary 09, 2012 3:19 pm

    That is such a strange feeling...


    /S /
    http:// mydarlingsolitude.blogspot.com
    ♥

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  5. loveylouFebruary 10, 2012 12:19 pm

    All at once, and nothing at all. That's all this ever is and all it always seems like far too much.
    Thank you for your beautiful words, reading your posts is always so insightful, you put into words things I can't.
    love always,
    xoxo

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:28 pm

      Hey, I feel very glad whenever you say that! Thank you. It inspires! :)

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  6. ŞenayFebruary 10, 2012 2:44 pm

    Beautiful as always, dear!<3 I love how i can always relate your lovely lines.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:29 pm

      Thank you.. Making it relate is something I don't plan.. it just happens! And I'm glad it does! :)

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  7. AnonymousFebruary 12, 2012 5:34 am

    nice blog,.

    but sorry to say the interface is not good,. quite difficult to read the content.

    i think it need to be changed if you wish.

    excellent posts,.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:31 pm

      About the interface, its one of my favourites. I'll most probably change it during a makeover to this blog! Thank you for the suggestion.

      Also thank you for the kind words. :)

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  8. RiàFebruary 13, 2012 9:13 am

    the last line was fabulous...and i love the look of ur blog. :)

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  9. NikenFebruary 13, 2012 9:17 am

    i think we've all been there. to feel all at once and nothing at all...
    i hope things are gonna be okay with you.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:33 pm

      Yes, I guess we're all together while feeling lonely.

      Thank you for the concern. I hope the same way too. :)

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  10. hazeFebruary 14, 2012 12:54 am

    Everything will be fine darling.
    This is beautiful.

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  11. Summer-RayeFebruary 14, 2012 6:20 am

    Girl Ive had that feeling a lot lately.
    check out my new giveaway
    happy valentines day

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:34 pm

      I did.. Its nice.
      And wish you the same, buddy. :)

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  12. RajaFebruary 14, 2012 11:09 am

    new to this blog. just dropped by..

    you had a great life in your childhood right bcoz u didn't think much back then.. don't let the bad imagination take you down.. hope everything is fine wid u..

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:36 pm

      Thank you for stopping by.

      Yes, I suppose every childhood is precious for it leads one ahead. Yes, I'll try not to let me down. Thank you for your concern! :)

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  13. ZebaFebruary 14, 2012 3:57 pm

    Sigh.

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  14. ArundhatiFebruary 14, 2012 9:28 pm

    Thank you.. :)

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  15. PhilO♥February 16, 2012 10:59 am

    You feel weightless, but the burden is killing!.. So relatable :)
    beautiful writing as always!

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  16. SimolydillogicalFebruary 17, 2012 5:07 am

    Hi ........ ummmmm ________ !( sorry don't know your name)
    Nice read this one. You know I think every once in a while we need to STOP and just listen to ourselves otherwise these things will keep on happening.

    BTW u have done quiet a nice make up with your blog. Just change the background color from white to anything else you like (just a suggestion) :)

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 19, 2012 3:53 am

      Thank you!! :)

      Yes, I've increased the font's size.. didn't change the font since its my most favourite.. Hope the bigger size and black colour doesn't make it difficult to read. :)

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  17. LoulouFebruary 20, 2012 6:08 am

    so happy i finally came here! thx so much for your sweet comments, even more so once i have started reading your beautiful words!
    following now, with delight!

    love,
    L.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 20, 2012 9:41 pm

      Oh, you're welcome!
      It'll surely feel great to have you as my new follower. :)

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  18. UnknownFebruary 21, 2012 11:54 pm

    I've been feeling this way for a long long time now.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 22, 2012 4:00 am

      I hope things work out well for you, too.

      Thank you for stopping by! :)

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  19. ♥●• İzdihër •●♥February 21, 2012 11:59 pm

    You know what we all think like that at some point in our life.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 22, 2012 4:01 am

      Yes, we all do. Sooner or later. More or less.

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  20. ZeebsFebruary 22, 2012 1:54 pm

    Story of my life: every day is a storm. There is no normal.

    I can fully relate. Oh and, nice blog.
    =)

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 22, 2012 10:36 pm

      It amazes me how many people relate to this!

      Thank you for stopping by! :)

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  21. SnowBowFebruary 23, 2012 10:49 pm

    hey,
    your blog is lovely :)

    thanks for stopping by at my blog

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  22. ~AND_February 24, 2012 8:35 am

    i feel this often. it makes me more numb. the feeling pretty well captured in words. ~ beautifully written

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  23. ~AND_February 24, 2012 8:40 am

    and lol... is this font Josefin Sans? :)

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 24, 2012 10:09 pm

      I understand. Such thoughts appear in mind very often!

      Thank you.. yeah, its Josefin Sans! Lovely font, ain't it?

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  24. CookieCrumbsInc.February 25, 2012 5:36 am

    After the deafening silence, the storm will lift. The dark clouds will fade into wisps of cotton and the sun will peep out like he's testing ground. What we have to do is wait for him, believe that however dark it gets, however dismal it seems, however painful it is, the sun will, most definitely, come out.

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 25, 2012 6:36 am

      True it is, indeed. The hope, the belief makes the whole difference, so they say. I'm yet to believe its true. But I feel I'm ready for experimenting.

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  25. Red HandedFebruary 25, 2012 10:00 am

    This too shall pass....its the circle of life!!

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  26. AnonymousFebruary 26, 2012 8:54 am

    Normal day, feels like a storm. We sailing in the same boat?

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  27. Nirati February 27, 2012 9:30 pm

    You're amazing :')
    I have been having such crappy mood-swings filled days since so much time, but you express it so beautifully.
    x

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    1. ArundhatiFebruary 28, 2012 9:15 pm

      I'm glad you liked it. :) Thank you so much :)

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  28. hazeMarch 02, 2012 8:36 pm

    I'm so sorry you are feeling this way honey. But you are a strong girl and everything you write in here is beautiful.xx

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    1. ArundhatiApril 07, 2012 5:55 am

      Its okay, Haze. I'm alright! :) Thank you for the kind words and concern :)

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  29. Confused SoulAugust 02, 2012 3:46 am

    It's going to be alright.. This too shall pass :)

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