The void

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I feel it.
I feel that I’m losing the grip over myself
Was there supposed to be any?
I thought I had it,
I thought I could get myself together and get up,
walk and just do things that I always was going to do
I didn’t know I’d fall
I didn’t know a fall would be like this
like this giant void
Which can’t be filled with or by people
Their noise and silences
I feel this giant void that pulls me down
way further and more.
Void is what owns my grip,
the grip that I long to have
I long to connect.
to merge
and be one with myself.

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